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Saturday, July 21, 2007

had ptm today which was a damn quick one after all.
the feeling of feeling weak sucks. its so stupid of me.
trying to suppress it the whole time round but in the end...
it shall not happen the next time. anymore.
cause i am going to be better.
its going to be a hell lot of work.
but i am not afraid.
no not the feeling of confidence, but the feeling of determination.
the wants to fight back.
and gain them back.
putting in such a way-the honour and glory. if there ever was.

i admit.
you are right.
all along.
i thank you for your understanding once again...
one of the advice even though it seems rather random on the contrary..but it seems to answer one of the decisions...
but why have religion brought up. just because i tend to doze off..
you said i deserve it that god has forsaken me. and i have no right to ask for his blessings.

the expectations- unspoken.

the facts- shown.

i wish we are all children again.

the past. the present. and the future.
should i be looking forward to the future, fulfilling every day in the present,
reflect back in the past for the future.
and the present be because of the past?

and in the end, end up confusing myself only.

yesterday was 20.07.2007 which milu brought it up during chinese lesson.
another quite special date.
it was supposedling racial harmony day on firday, but we had it on thur.
some people came in ethnic costumes- jap, malay, indian, chinese..
quite a few came in kampong style clothes. lol.
there's some small food bazaar..